euphony of my air

You know the feeling.

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 07:32:17 GMT

You know the feeling you get when
somebody in your social circle is VERY into church
that the person wouldnt turn up for NON CHRISTIAN social gatherings
cause the person has church stuff to do
all
the
fucking
time?
cause i get that feeling.
all
the
fucking
time
from
so
many
different
mother
fuckers.

makes me drift away from church. and eventually God himself.

anw. ive preached debated thought and cried about it im sick of it.

"church church church. i bomb the church see what she have left."
i know its mean. its a joke, and i really found it so funny.

When you get insomnia,
you're never really asleep.
and you're never really awake,

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 05:15:38 GMT

Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday
Saturday
Sunday
Monday

Tuesday

Everyday i wake up, i choose love, i choose light.

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 07:34:59 GMT

And here we are in the center of the first world
It's laid out for us, who are we to break down?

Today, is my 4th day at work.
Mondays to Fridays. from 0830 to 1830.
out of the 10 hours, 7 hours is used for either,
sleeping, eating, drinking, shitting, bejeweled, music, msging etc.
the other 3 hours would be used for some work that need/need not need to be done.
it pays 7/hour. sweeeeeeet life.

mummy said she agrees pay for my Msia trip with Neh&friends.
sweeeeeeeeeeeetesssssssssssstttttttttttttt.

im meeting Neh in the morning for breakfast at Kith, cause i wanna see maryyyyyy.
then we're gonna collect her pay cheque, my Macbeth script, and her dresses.
and we're gonna catch Cat Lost And Found by The Finger Players.

awesome stufffffffffffffff.

You're Real, that's the difference.

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 10:52:29 GMT

If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldnt that be something

19th on 19th

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 13:01:43 GMT

HAPPY HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY MY BABY NEHNEH LOVE!!!!!

18th Sept -
sequence of event to her birthday :
1 - dawn su picked me up from bugis, drove to east coast where they helped me set up the tent

2 - they had to leave, cause they were going on a cruise! so i had 5 hours to kill before i set up the stuff.
almost slept through the 5 hours cause i didnt have enough sleep the night before. IMMA PIG

3 - i met her at parkway parade cause i didnt wanna let her know where we were going
took a cab down to east coast - kept her eyes closed till we reached the tent

4 - she cried cause she was v v touched. AHHAHA OKAY IM KIDDING

then went off to get the haagen daz ice cream at about 12.15am, and put the MAGIC RELIGHTED CANDLES. MUAHAHAHHA
she got so fed up of blowing it off over and over again, - HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA SO FUNNNN

yes she changed into the clothes i brought for her. hahaha

5. spent the whole morning of 19th Sept with her
got off our lazy assses at about 8.45am where we went to buy toothpaste! and hunted for UOB to draw money
ended up at parkway parade when we had to rush to catch breakfast at macs MCGRIDDLES YAY

went back to east coast to find our tent kinda...out of shape.. from the big wind.
HAHAHHA what a sight.
then we figured its the BEST TIME TO KITEFLYYYY AND WE DID!
for about 15 mins before it got stuck in a tree. HAHHAHA
SIGH WE WERE SO EXCITED

the only picture of one and a half of us.
i really hope you enjoyed yourself. hopefully this isnt the last birthday i get to celebrate with / for you. =(
but im glad i got the chance to spend at least one of it with you.
i love you so much.

AND ALSO HAPPY '19th on 18th' BIRTHDAY TO ANDREEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
im really sorry i couldnt be there, i owe you and cass birthday treatsss,
i hope you had a great time anyways.
MUUAAAAAAAHH I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU VERY MUCH.

help

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 13:41:02 GMT

i was in the toilet shitting when my sister of age 24,
called out to me saying : " deborah did you see my new toothbrush?!"
i scanned the toilet, from one item to another, looking for e SPECIAL toothbrush,
when i saw THIS satanic looking thing in my toilet.

i was like "oh my god"
and she would be like " HEHEHE!"

seriously, ive already 3 of her ugly looking soft toys HUNG all over my room
1 is stitch that looks like a rat, the 2 others are hello kittieSSSSSSS, a blue one and a DARK RED ONE.
the red one looks like a devil,
id see that everytime i open my eyes in e morning.

help

Sweet Beans

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 08:04:21 GMT

its been sooooo long since ive updated.

school has been oh so busy and tiring,
late nights early mornings,
physically and mentally exhausting.
BUT IT ALWAYS FEELS GOOD.

haha anw, the first major event of year 2 has past,
repertoire scenes,
was awesomeeeeeee.
got goood good good response.
and im satisfied with it, even though we could have done better. ( nth's ever enough eh )
our next repertoire would be in mid october. my goddd.
shakespear in that little amount of time.

ANYHOW. BESIDES SCHOOL, I STILL HAVE A LIFE.
thank god for nehneh, for always being there.
yes im becoming reliant on her, for comfort, joy, protection.
for rest.
despite the horrible arguments we had
yes, horrible. =(

there're many things happening, with my grandma, crazy moronic aunt and parents.
i always try to keep myself away from these worries,
or id go crazy myself.
dont wanna talk too much about this.

hmmmmmmmmm.
okay byeeee
mummy want me to get a haircut.

Sound of silence

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 17:46:04 GMT

No like

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 04:33:26 GMT

sometimes simplicity can be sooooo complicating.
=(

22

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 16:43:32 GMT

To Mine
From Yours

Grounded

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 09:02:25 GMT

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 10:34:32 GMT

Thursday - GALA FINALS OF SHORT AND SWEET with Darren and Mr Andrew in it !

Friday - DINNER WITH CHELLIE so many things to talk aboutt

Saturday - A DAY WITH BOOBOO SOHHH like finaallllly

Sunday - BALLET UNDER THE STARS with Sayang Mary Carol and Neh! egggciting

Monday - SCHOOL RESUMES fight fight fight

Black and Gold - Sam Sparro

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 06:43:01 GMT

i feel a way of something beyond them
i don't see what i can feel
if vision is the only validation
then most of my life isn't real

'cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold

I named my favourite soft toy after you - Jacksto

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 15:19:11 GMT

i still cant believe you passed away.

Told me something new

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 02:03:08 GMT

n ' how do you irritate lady-gaga? '
p ' -_- how. '
n ' pok-her face. hahahaha!! '

p ' look far, so you wont feel so giddy '
n ' i cant ! im so-near (sonia) hahaha!! '

p ' oh yeah we can cross, its a zebra crossing! '
n ' we are zebras crossing! which one you want to be?? black or white?'
p ' ???? '

p ' why're you so lame todayy '
n ' that's why i sit down!! hahaha! '

Kiss me through the phone

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 08:46:33 GMT

silly billy willy pilly nilly tilly rilly hilly rilly filly jilly lilly dilly villy

the day

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 16:47:17 GMT

today started out pretty early.
head down to meet aunty alice at woodlands.
we had to go to granny's place to clear/clean up.
woooooh.
it was a lot of work i must say.
she kept everything. EVERYTHING.
like, she never throws away ANYTHING.
just recycles em. over and over again.
she made stuff too.
impressively inventive.
aunty siti was saying how we can make an exhibition.
hahahhaha. full of nonsense.
anw. like i said, a lot a lot of work just to clean that one room flat.
and. we're not done.
back there again tmr.
despite the dust insects expired food dust cockroach eggs mould expired food insects and dust,
there was this scent in the air that made me wonder a lot about her.
saw some of her personal stuff.
and ah. i never really noticed how beautiful a woman she is.
and THEN, at many points, i thought of you,
and how much more fun it would be if you were there cleaning up with me.
BUT ANW.
THEN went to watch the top 30 in e short and sweet festival!!
i went alone cause uhm. everybody couldnt make it?
yeah.
im pretty much getting use to it.
i was the only person in the front please.
i felt like a moron for a while.
but i really wanted to get UPCLOSE and PERSONAL. ha
it was a great view of singapore theatre.
you can see the distinct line between the beginners and the growing.
and maybe, spore theatre aint so bad after all. =)
i was wondering how e hell can one come up with a 10 min piece.
its soo soo short. so little time to make it right.
it must involve hard work to make it an awesome piece man.
id like to add, darren did a great job. =)
YOU MAKE A WONDERFUL ROBBER!
haha.

Complete pieces

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 17:18:30 GMT

your fingers on candled lips
place forth with grace so tender
crack upon rock you raise high
with completely nothing to offer

-
-
-
-
ill complete it soon.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 00:50:41 GMT

3rd day and im going mad. =(
job interview with ta later, i hope i get it,
so it can take my mind off this.
=(
IS THIS REALLY NECESSARY?! =((

Absence.

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 11:14:03 GMT

" absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones,
as the wind blows out the candle
and blows up the bonfire. "

thank you,

Supergirl

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 10:31:16 GMT

stand by me,
nobody knows the way its gonna be.

Pinky Promise?

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 05:59:18 GMT

and i wrote that,
before it actually killed me.

ill be strong.

Now, who really cares about words?

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 08:11:31 GMT

im so happy with you,
that sometimes, i dont know how to make the best of the time i have.
i look at you, and i dont know what to say, or do.
like i just wanna stand there, close my eyes.
and enjoy the smell in the air,
the smell of just you and me.
hoping maybe, it'll stay with me forever.

such a contradiction,
that although you stimulate my brain,
to do the intelligent,
you make me not wanna comtemplate.
not overanalyze simple things.
you're the reason for the impossible amount of positivity in me.
but no.
negativity will not overtake, even if you leave.

only cause its hard to forget this.

i dont know how you do it,
grabbing the whole of me, when i cant even feel any part of me.
i dont know how you do it.
and for the first time, i dont wanna know.
for the first time, i dont wanna anticipate the future.
i dont need to.
a risk?
a risk worth taking.
cause it doesnt matter. nothing else does

what do you believe in?
noone can say anyone is 'right' or 'wrong'.
cause who really knows it.
it is right, when you believe you are.
it is wrong, when it goes against your beliefs.
that's agreeable.
what do you believe in?

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 06:18:51 GMT

sometimes, i just wanna take your hand.
and run.

Crackers team.

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 06:31:21 GMT

every little cell in my body is happy
every little cell in my body is well
every little cell in my body is happy
every little cell in my body is well
i feel so good
i feel so well
every little cell in my body is well
i feel so good
i feel so well
every little cell in my body is well.

=( SHIT I MISS THEM.